A Blind Alley

Dear,



Hmmm still awake and got myself sit on this chair then keep typing whatever comes out.. Listening to Gatha Tisarana really is so peace and joyful..

Diary.. Lots stories have kicked my mind with thousand of needles and it engraved on my heart!
Quarreling happened couple days ago.. My main matter is in a blind alley, also waiting for being destructed with a big bulldozer.. nothing would stay except debris and memories..

huff.. I can't help worrying all things that approach lately.. It seems to be a great anxiety..


There is no way back to the past.. It's fragile and gonna be broken after determination is settled..


hahahaahah..


err everything that is related to this problem really breaks my confidence.. While I saw people with a happy life and great relation, It burdens my mind a lot with inferiority.. I sometimes refuse to face everything.. :(

but I've merely built up a better confidence by supporting myself..


It sounds I kinda lack of self confidence.. Yes.. I really do.. but it's better than how it used to be..



OOPSS... It's already 01.21.. It's too late bebe :P


thanks for listening to my little story..



Good Night Sweetie..