Family

Family is a place that everyone belongs to..
How if it is not a family that you imagine..
You've lost a part that most people are having..

fall.. stand.. begin again..
I'm now walking to nowhere but somewhere..
Scarcely brave to look behind..
Feel something horrible is gonna catch you up..

Keep running....
Keep moving forward.....

Should I look behind when it's been too far to reach you.....?


I'm trying to lose that memory..


But my heart tells me to keep it and let it be a part of my story..



but still I don't know the answer..

just keep walking and there might be an answer..

I need practicing and never let a sec go with all nonsense things..

Be strong !

Be in spirit always my dear girl !!!!!!!

My now favorite teacher :D

~ Thich Nhat Hanh ~

Bad Luck :(

U g h I'm gonna die soon because my being poor of lucky shocked me tremendously! I took photos and the camera suddenly came to an error. O M Gosshhh.. I did hold it carefully. =.= After I checked it and turn it on once, fortunately it got no problemo, just low battery !

I would never ever be alive again if it was really damaged! It was just fully unthinkable if it could be broken.

Am I having a couple of bad luck hands?

I am just too tired of being like this. I was absolutely a careless person, but I now do change!

I hate to see my sister or anybody else got doubted on me, I know it is my fault.

I don't know. It is just out of my control. Can anybody say that it is okay? Can anybody just trust me if they know I am having those terrible hands? I am so sad.

I just need trust :(

Btw, what is goin' on with these hands? anybody temme please :(

:D

Hi dear..

I am happy :)

I am happy to see everyone gets happiness..

Though I haven't got what I have ever dreamed on, but I just feel satisfied to feel everything..

Yeah, I tell myself..

This is how it should be. People should be happy.

Whatever it is or what do all people aim is basically the same thing. No matter to be rich, beautiful, handsome or popular and so on. It is happiness.

Some of them are still the same till now on. Not much different can be compared. Still doing the evil things and never be in peace. I just feel pity of them. I can't say much because sometimes you need to be quiet and let everything flow and let them experience their own lives. Talking too much just makes it worse.

I am feeling so well.... I even forget what I want.. I don't want anything right now..

I wanna try to always release every feelings so that I can always feel like this way.. so peace.............

Happy Birthday !!!

Hi dear..

It was my birthday yesterday on 8 Jan.. Uncountable lovely wishes greeted me.. Aaa.. It was so good a day :D

I found something mysterious inside my school bag.. Yet it wasn't not mine, but I knew somebody must have put it inside my bag :DDD

Stephanie Chandra, Fani Ramli, Cheria, and Ria did. They wrapped something heavy and strange.

They insisted on my tearing the gift.. xD so much feel shy to open it among lots of friends..

hahaha..

I never thought they would give me this!


AAAA.. I love these books.. I've ever found it at Gramedia and read it excitedly..
Finally I could get it..!!


Why I love "Dunia Sofie" ?

hmmm... because it is explaining something about philosophy, and it is written as a novel so we can get a new and light reading :)

Lately I am so much interested in philosophy so that's another reason I love this book..

Why " Cacing dan Kotorannya " ?

My sister has ever owned this book, and I haven't finished reading and understanding the whole part..
but she gave it to her friend ( she didn't know that I was still reading it ) and I was so disappointed..
but now? I've got a new one.. hahah..

This is a good book and has been the best seller :)

It is a good spiritual book, try it!



HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESSICA !!! :D

Here it comes 2011.. Thank you 2010, you let me learn a lot of things.. Let me be awake and live my life mindfully.. I don't know why.. I feel like crying when I am trying to look back my life.. From my childhood till who I am.. I never thought everything will change just in a glance.. haha.. Life is really unpredictable..

I really feel like crying :')

I ain't blame no one.. Sometimes I just feel pity of myself err kinda feel inferior.. But I am back to strengthen by saying " Hey! This problem is nothing to ya Jess! Oh come on.... You need to be mature if you love y'r mother.. " :D

Yeah sometimes it is tired of being like this.. sometimes you just wanna call someone to lend his shoulder to cry, ears to listen and eyes to convince you that everything will be okay..

2011...

This is another tough year.. This year start from tomorrow, I'll be crazy in schedule my time.. Hahaa I look like a superstar..

I got extra class for preparing UAN at school, 3 days in a week for my course, I am going to teach my another new students at Madong Lubis and also at my own home.. :( I ain't think about it.. It really makes me feel crazy.. I have to work for myself because I can't count on him anymore.. I even can't imagine how I can schedule my time.. It is too miserable.. I do have to study harder for my last year at Sutomo and Winfield.. V_V

Mother Earth, please give me new spirit and guide me with your shoulder, ears and eyes :'(